today i want to apologize to you
for treating you like you weren't enough
for consistently hitting your head on that brick wall
for not knowing what you know now
for leaving situations that were too scary, too big, too complex, simply too much for you at the time
for feeling shame about your past and your actions
for doing the wrong thing more than once
for taking time to learn a lesson and do better
for being mean to yourself
for judging yourself
for all the negative self talk and 'I can't's'
for thinking and feeling that you aren't beautiful exactly as you are
for not forgiving yourself because he couldn't
for not giving yourself value
and ultimately,
for not understanding that you are enough
most lovingly and sincerely,
me.
