when I'm with you, I feel full. so full that I am unsure what to do next, how to proceed, or even what to say. so full that my thoughts are kind of cloudy. so full that my words fail me. I've never felt so full before from another human being. It's not the same as when I eat too much, or drink too much, or over-consume. It's not really of a physical nature, though it does have physical side effects. Side effects like elation, an elevated heart beat, butterflies, and excitement at what the future holds. It's emotional. I feel so full because you consume me. Your love, and my love for you. I am consumed by you, with you. And yet, miraculously, unlike anything physical, there is always room for more. There seems to be a never-ending pool of space allocated to feeling full with you. I hope that never changes.
aside from feeling full, I feel at ease. Being with you is so easy for me. I feel like I can be 100% myself when I am with you, and that is a hard feeling to find. I'm eager to hold onto that feeling. I know I can dance to whatever music I feel like and sing at the top of my lungs in front of you (or maybe with you?!) and not feel awkward or embarrassed or strange. Just the opposite. I know that I can cry and worry and stress and express negative feelings to you and not feel bad or discouraged or like I have to shelter my emotions. Just the opposite. I know that you will be there for me and listen and comfort and provide advice where it fits or if I need it. I know that you will laugh and smile with me when I need to release all those happy feelings I have by way of being a silly goofball. I know that when you look at me, you look at me without judgment and accept me for exactly who I am. I know that you know me. And yes, you will learn to know me even more as time goes by, and I desperately hope and wish that what you discover is something you remain in love with, something that grows your love for me, and something that never dies.
