Not easy but it’s necessary
If I’m honest I have to admit
I thought we’d get another go at it
I thought we’d have a chance to do things differently
I thought we might meet again over ice cream
Or a game or two in an arcade
At the very least, I thought you’d let me know
That you no longer wanted to hear from me
That you were ready to put me in your vault of past lovers forever
That I was never to be your person
Nor you mine
The lofty dreams of a home and a life and Christmas morning together were indeed lofty
But perhaps you’ve had those dreams and goals with several people
Or it’s less about the person than it is about your personal goal and dream
Either way, you’ve moved on
And you’re repeating moments of our life together, with someone new
It’s strange and it’s peculiar and it’s downright sickening to see
But I truly do hope you’re happy
Even if it takes every fibre of my being to wish that for you now
I know the real you, and I loved the real you, and what we had was ours, not ever ever replaceable
At the end of the day, grandma remembered your name
You were special, you were my person for a brief moment in this life
And you were one hell of a lesson.
-merci pour tout mon dernier amour
