you say that i awakened something in you
in that letter from years ago
you say that i gave you hope
for a future less bleak, less negative, less void of emotional connection
you exclaim "are you wearing black chucks?'
as joy division's 'love will tear us apart' comes on and i say "they do a really great job making something so sad sound so upbeat"
and you smile and nod and go inside your thoughts to a time before
when perhaps we were a possibility
maybe to being naively mislead
by someone like me
before i learned all the lessons succeeding you
and still you say you want good things for me
and still you pour me a glass of water and order me a drink
and still you remind me that we have such a short time here
in this life on earth
and that we're all human beings
and you invite and urge me to grab what i want by the reigns and live
l i v e
live!
for showing me what love could look like, the definition of kindness, for exuding such empathy and consideration, for always being rational and strong and vulnerable and true
i am in constant awe of you
and grateful beyond words that our paths crossed
-thank you, j, you're one of a kind
