It's been like this since the beginning, and it isn't the best feeling to start out a relationship with. I know you don't mean for it to come across that way, but it does. And I know it has been a problem for you in the past, and maybe it will be forever. I hope it isn't, because I can only imagine how tiring it must be to live life like that...Always in search of something more when maybe what is best for you is in fact right in front of you. I don't want to ask you to change, because I want you to be 100% of you when you are with me. And I also want to be 100% of me when I am with you. It's only fair. And it's the only thing that will work in the long run (or perhaps it won't). And right now, I don't think I'm ever going to be able to be 100% of me when I am with you, for fear of being, saying, or doing something that you are not okay with. Or that you want me to change. Or that isn't perfect. I am only human, after all.
The sooner you realize, and I mean really realize it, deep down, not just acknowledge on the outside, that perfection doesn't exist, the happier you will be. I wish I could tell you exactly how you might be able to achieve this, but I can't. I am willing to help you, though. I think that this realization could be applied to a number of areas of your life, not just relationships or love and companionship.
don't try to defend yourself or this or anything. just read this, and think. and take it in. these are my thoughts, so you can't do anything with them"
