because

Because I gave you everything and you only took what you wanted. Because maybe you left the rest for someone more deserving, even though you were deserving...at first. Because I give, give, give. And you take, take, take. Because you are selfish, the most selfish person I've ever met. Because you don't even know it! Because my heart stands for nothing and your soul is too weak. Because you need to transform, to change, to be something better. Because I'm stupid for thinking you could transform, change, and be something better. Because I am guilty of wishful thinking. Because I am too good to be banging my head against the wall over this. Because I wanted to help you. Because I am 'the caregiver'. Because I care too much. Because I am human. Because it is impossible for me not to care.   Because you didn't want my help. Because you didn't want to change! Because I didn't learn the first time. The second time. The third time. The fourth time!  Because I don't know how to stop. Because I invest too much. In my friends, in my lovers, in others, in general. Because it hurts but it fills me up but then it leaves an emptiness, an unfairness, a resentment. Because I'm younger than you. Because I am bored and there's nothing better to do. Because of this anger. Because we are passionate. Because of these tears. Because of the pain, ache, hurt, and utter madness you make me feel. Because I let it in. Because I let you in. Because I am weak. Because I am hot headed. Because I thought you needed a true friend. Because you're cool! Because in your home I felt at home, too.  Because I am loyal and genuine and sensitive and fragile. Because I've been hurt before. And because I never had the guts then, and because you had the audacity to ask me to say please--- you are nefarious. The dark knight, never again.

'But then you, you come around...

Big mistake.'