resistance to saying goodbye
resistance to letting you go
resistance to change
in my environment, my self, my attitude, my values, my views
me.
resistance to a lack of a future vision
us.
the one with the family and traditions and christmas trees from Canada
the one with the house and the peaceful backyard oasis
and the pink wall.
the one where we were together.
resistance to it all.
because letting go is harder than living in fantasy land.
i miss you and our shared vision
